4th July: Throne

I am sorry for writing so late,
but finding words for a concert of Kamijo is just impossible.
 
At first:
how can a man, who becomes 39 years old this year look so beautiful. It´s not because of the hole make up he maybe wears on stage (it didn´t look so)...there are details in his face, in the way he moves, the way he behaves which are just beautiful.
All the little fine lines in his face. They reveal days, months and years of hard work with passion and they look so beautiful on him. His smile was warm, lovely, honest. Everytime I saw him smile my heart was begging for more.
He moved smooth, noble, with proud but not arrogant, not a second. How can a man be so proud in such a honest way?
There is just beauty on him, warm and wonderful beauty. What a difference when I remember him 3 years ago! I can´t describe him better, you have to see him and you will unerstand it. He is just a breathtaking beauty.

That he create his songs as honest as his beauty is you coudl also experience. Everything fits perfectly. But I have to speak out a little Warning:

If you are extremely sensitive, easy to influence by music and you have an open heart...you should be careful or you will become addicted to Kamijo!!!!!!

For me it´s definitely too late. He sang "Tresór" and "Grazioso" and I was the little child I am always when I think of him. In contrast to earlier he looks like a father of ALL of his fans in such moments, such songs. His calming voice is like a tender caressing on you. Do you all remember this moments? when you played in your room, or outsite and Daddy came home from work? This warm moment when he pics you up and gave you a kiss when you where a little girl, not older than 3 or 4 years? That´s how it feels for me sometimes if I met Kamijo.
Yeah, I know it is weird, but just try to remember and maybe you will understand.

But this man also has his dark sites, strong sites...his hole character is like a garden of hundreds of different roses. He is also a strong Master, a King of his own country and he reigns over his nation with a staunchness to his fans that makes you speachless. His songs, the story behind it can make you strong just by visiting this one concert.
Also he makes you feel the past better than any historylesson about the french revolution.
"Symphony of the Vampire" and all the songs he put around them gave you another feeling for what happened. In historylessons we just learn what happened and why, but no one thinks about the feelings, about the little, young Louis Charles... 
He was a child, he was innocent and just what others did destroyed this little young heart. On the concert you could see it in his eyes. Kamijo was thinking a lot about what happened. I can not explain how he made this but he was able to make history real and emotional in his own way.

I don´t wanted it but when he started with "Adagio of the full moon" I started crying. It´s because of  Kamijo himself and about what stands behind this song and what you see in the PV. Also it is because of another musician I adore and I miss him so much. So my eyes were moving between Shinya-sama and Kamijo-sama because of this reason and my feelings went up and down and I couldn´t hide my tears. I am sure this is maybe hard to understand. But if you look at all my blog entries maybe you will understand.
"Throne" pushed me up again. It felt like celebrating a king and the future which will come. I love this last part of the Symphony and I love it to sing it out loud. It fits so greate to this man. I wanted to celebrate him every single day of my life!!!

His Supports also were fantastic!! I think I have a little crush on Ikuo-sama, which is really a fascinating bassist and a really, really handsome man.
Sometimes it was hard to concentrate on Kamijo-sama if there is standing this little beauty in front auf you :)
At least I was happy to meet Shinya-sama, who was a friend of the first japanese musician I started to adore. Even if it´s hard in July to push away some painful memories, it was good to see him. And if anyone wants to tell me that this man couldn´t play drums...I swear he or she will regret to speak out this lie. Shinya-sama is a  fantastic drummer and no one fits better to Kamijo-sama as a support drummer than Shinya. Even if he seems to be very shy and a little bit shocked that so many people were celebrating him, because it was Kamijo-samas day and not Shinya-samas. I hope he isn´t worried, because he can´t do anything against the decision of his fans to show him how much they love him. If support or not, fans are loving and they show it and it is good how it is.
Before I forgot: I was smiling most of the time. Since I saw him for the first time at the concert I had to smile at him. This man is just making me smile when I see him ♥ Yes I am a child, a little girl: curious of the world, not thinking about sadness and happy about her life..just because of this one concert.


I believe that this video describes the impressive I have from him.
He changed a lot since all the time which past and now I adore him much more than before. I watched every breath he toke, every move he made, I was listening to every single Note he was singing, every word he said, just to learn from him, to become just nearly as fantastic as he is.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s8EU08IBKZc

With Love,


Kimie

 

4 Golden Years

My Dear Hearties, My Dearest Crew of Anonymous Confederate Ensemble,

I am not someone who can describe moments like this with just a few words, but I want to try my best to make it short for all of us. You all mean very much to me and on this 4th anniversary I want to thank you all, the band and the Fans.

4 Years are now over and because of A this years where the most wonderful in my live. I´ve never meet such a sozial, lovely and friendly fanbase. Even if we all don´t know each other we all seems to be friends. It´s like a network which goes around the world and showes that we all are one. I was visiting a lot of different concerts, but just on a concert of A I had the chance to take the hand of my friends, and to enjoy it with them together. This 21 month later I was getting to know a lot of new people and friends, just because of this one band. people which really make me believe that they aren´t false friends. Something which wasn´t really easy to see before I was getting to know the band. So thank you very much, Hearties and Friends that you are here, so that we all can believe in the good, no matter if there is light or darkness. 

But such a wonderful fanbase can´t exist without a wonderful band! 
I can´t stop remembering the day I was getting to know A. A friend of mine sent me the musicvideo of Vanilla sky and, curious like I am, I was watching it. There was a feeling of fondness by watching it and than I was falling down from the chair. My mother just looked at me and I couldn´t explain to her why I was falling down. Today I could, for sure. 
A are really a band which is different from all I was listening before. And I am sure there will be no other band which could be like this. No one else can put the hole world on music. No one else can create songs which can guide you through the whole life, like this. Even if it´s having fun with my friends or my familie, or a difficult decision I have to make. Even if something goes wrong or right, there is alsways their music. No other band could do it and at the end it seems to be so easy for A to change the life of Fans, to let them all grow up to wonderful strong human. A doesn´t just make music and give concerts, there is much more behind it. A whole world for this human who want to understand how precious the own life and the life of others is. 
Pirates are traveling around to find treasures and our pirates found it, together with us. For me personally we found the most precious treasures in the world: Love in all it´s thousands of different ways. No matter if it´s between lovers, friends, familymembers, strangers, for yourselfe, for the music or for your country or for something else.  And this treasure is it, and will it ever be, what makes us being strong and able to realize everything we want.

I am sure there is something like a red thread of destiny on the pinkie finger, which connects us to each other. I believe in it as much as I can, so noone of us will ever be alone.
Let us celebrate together this wonderful 4 golden years. I am thankful for everything the band created: for Rookie Fiddler´s creativity and his tireless use of hundreds of instruments, for Toshi´s wonderful and sophisticated bassplay, which at least reached the hearts of a lot of women and warmed it, for Mucho Gracias wonderful guitarplay, which he plays with so much passion and love and which is one of the best I was ever listening to. And I am (as a singer) thankful for Nimo´s incredible, unique voice, which filled every song with the right feelings like no other vocalist could do it, which calmed me down when I am restless and pent-up and makes me everytime standing up and continue singing.
I wish you a wonderful 4th anniversary and good luck for the next years which will follow, no matter what you all want to do.


With love

Kimie


PS: A picture from the most fantastic concert I`ve ever had ♥ Even if I am looking terrible because I was nervous as hell!!!!! ♥
 

Moonlight

Dear You,

I had a dream of you again. Lost in the snow I was searching for a safety place. It was a nightmare from someone I´ve lost for years. I was running away, like everytime. But soon there were only snow. Then, I was screaming, as loud as I can.

Bright moonlight blinded my eyes, everywhere only snow and bleakness and cruel silence.
In the moment where I wanted to give up, your warm and dark shadow saved my eyes from the cruel moonlight. Wisps of black hair were falling smoothly in your face. Again I can only remember dark brown eyes which looked like black pearls and a soothing smile.
Arms around me, spending warmth. Hands combing my red hair lovingly. There were words which break through the silence, but I can´t remember your voice, your name, your lovely words. But I remember sounds of a piano and a violin. No one where standing on this white field, only some trees were watching us. They saw us dancing, slowly and lightly to the melody, played by the full moon.
I was smiling, but can´t remember your smile.
You were so warm.
I was putting my arms around you to be close to you. How I enjoyed your near, your heartbeat next to my heart, the calming voice which I forgot.
I was saved until the moment where I´ve lost the body which was holding me. It was falling apart like an illusion of snowflakes. This fear of loneliness…..Where are you now? Where?
The melody became still and again bright moonlight blinded my eyes. I was falling down into the snow, overwhelmed by fear. Only your warmth stayed around me.

I awaked weeping. The melody of my dream was playing the hole night by my mobile phone. With closed eyes,  I was searching you next to me in my bed, with the foolish hope you could be there, but I was alone. Only the one I´ve lost years ago was looking at me from a picture a friend drawed for me. I miss him, and I miss you like hell everytime when the full moon is shining into my little room and the melody played again and again for hours, breaking the silence of snow.

13 years have passed since we met each other for the first time and you never left me alone without saying why. Only in this one dream. And now I am waiting until we meet again. Maybe in spring and not in these cruel winter time.  And I can´t stop sleeping since I am missing you so bad. So, come back to me and we were running away like everytime, to places all over the world, to feel free and to escape the nightmares which plague us.

With Love

Kimie

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WbB9eh0iIQA

4 years

Der 31.3.2007, ein zarter Frühlingssonntag. Als wäre es erst gestern gewesen als seine Antwort kam. Und als sei es gerade ein paar Stunden her als mein Herz zu schlagen begann, so schnell das ich Angst hatte ich würde sogleich ohnmächtig werden.
Dieselben Gefühle, an einem 31.3.......2011.
4 Jahre, so schnell vergangen wie der zarte Windhauch an diesem heutigen, regnerischen Tag.  Ein Mann, der mir zeigte wie hoch Höhen udn wei tief Tiefen sein können.Ich bin durchgeschüttelt, halb bewusstlos udn dennnoch hellwach.

Jedes liebe Wort so süß wie die feinste Schokolade und dennnoch jeder böse Ton so schmerzhaft wie die Hölle. Wie oft hatte ich gedacht ich sterbe an gebrochenem Herzen?
Und jetzt? Jetzt ist es wieder egal. Ich bin blind für Liebe, sehe die ganzen anderen Menschen nicht, nur ihn.
Diesne einen Mann mit dem Schwarzen Haar, so schön wie schwarzer Satin und den Augen so Schwarz und dunkel, dennoch klar so das man darin versinkt. Als würde man ertrinken vor Liebe.

Wieso kann ich dir nie entfliehen?
Noch heute dachte ich an einen anderen hübschen Mann, perfekt für mich.
Doch schon bist du wieder da und der Gedanke an einen anderen verfliegt, als würde ich eine sinnlose Idee einfach verwerfen.
So oft hab ich es versucht...aber du hälst mich fest in deinen Bann und ich bin verloren wie ein armes Lamm.

Wieso ich?
Ich würde sterben, stündest du jetzt vor mir, so atemberaubend wäre deine bloß Anwesenheit.
Deine Stimme....sie ist mein Lebenselexier. Wie lange habe ich sie nicht gehört...ich muss sie wieder hören, nur einmal.
Du Droge, warum wirkst du nur so gut? Die Nebenwirkungen sind verherrend....udn doch kann ich nicht auf dich verzichten. Ich bin keien starke frau udn du weist das. Lachst du über mich?
Lass mich dir doch nru einmal wiederstehen können, ein einziges mal nur. Es würde vieles so leicht machen.
Aber so wei man die Physik nicht außer Kraft setzen kann, so zieht mich die Anziehungskraft zu dir.
wei ein Starker Magnet das Eisen nichtmehr freigibt, gibst du mich nichtmehr frei. Und alles was an anderen Stoffen zwischen uns steht wird eingequentscht.

Und es ist dir nichtmal bewusst, das jedes Wesen das dich trifft für immer verloren ist.
Du bist ein Hexer und niemand vermag es deinen Fluch zu brechen.
Deshalb...hat es keinen Sinn zu leugnen wie sehr mein Herz für dich schlägt.
Du weist ich werde es versuchen, wieder und wieder und wieder. Du wirst dich köstlich darüber amüsieren.

Warum fällt es mir so schwr dich zu beschreiben? Ich wünschte ich könnte ausdrücken wie wudnervoll du bist, doch es gelingt mir einfahc nicht. Diese Sätze, sind nur fetzen eines Großen, unbeschreiblich schönen Kleides namens Liebe udn ich habe keine Nadel und keinen Faden um sie zusammenzufügen.
Und ich bekomme nichtmal alle Worte richtig zusammen, so serh verwirrst du mich.

Raub mir den Verstand, ich brauche ihn nicht.
Stehl mein Herz, damit es kein anderer tut.
Lass mich leiden, weil du der einzige zu ertragene Schmerz in meinem leben bist.
Lass mich toben vor Wut und Hass auf mich, weil ich zu shcwach bin dir zu wiederstehen.
Nimm mir all meine Kraft, weil ich dank dir immernoch werde stehen können.
Nur geh niemals fort, weil das das Ende eines wirklich schönen Traumes wäre.

Du bist mein Traum, mein Herz, Mein Leben, Meine Muse, Mein einzigstens Gefühl, meine Flügel...
Mein Allesname.

Kimie